Back in the swing of things
Well it feels good to be back. Mentally and physically. I had to check out and go live in my own world for a while but I am ready to start working again. It’s not like I completely left the industry or anything but I definitely took a backseat in my life and career for the last year. Call it depression. Call it bitterness or anger. Call it frustration. Call it what you want, I didn’t want to be in show business anymore. I didn’t feel like being the funny monkey. Why should I entertain these people? What do they care about me?
Then there’s the industry that didn’t want me too. Its like meeting your soulmate and then finding out that they are abusive. The rejection I was facing day in and day out was starting to affect me and my emotions. Not just in the industry. In my everyday life. I was having a hard time making friends. Having a very very hard time meeting members of the opposite sex. My confidence went through the floor. There is always a transition when you move to a new place but it’s been three years. I shouldn’t still be struggling this badly.
I had no stability in my life for 3 years and it ravaged my psyche. I had no financial stability. No job security. No stable home. And I was trying to hustle in a career and city that was pushing my mental/emotional stability.
Long story, short, I kinda just became an anti-social hermit for a year. Why? I’ll tell you in the next blog.
Thanks for sticking around,
Sina.
